‘All our friends’: about extraterrestrials and neighboring intelligences

חפא was often asked by people, why he insists on telling us about the extraterrestrials, and wants us to learn about them and get to know them. "Why do we need to know that?" they asked. "What will it give us?"

חפא did not understand or insisted on not understanding this question. "We live in the universe, it is all around us."

"You might live in the universe" they answered him once. "We live on Earth, what happens in the universe does not concern us, and will not give us anything, and we don't even see it, it does not interest us and should not interest us."

חפא once sadly remarked that indeed they were right, only he lived once in the universe, and it greatly affected him and his field of vision. They haven't gotten there yet and they don't have this consciousness of 'living within the universe'. This causes a huge gap between him and people, which he doesn't know how to bridge, if at all possible (Even if some of them will be lucky enough to go through his experience).

But aliens don't just live only "in space".

He once asked: What makes aliens 'alien' and it's different from animals, for example? To this he answered: It's not necessarily that they come directly from outside the Earth (we all probably came, indirectly, from outside the Earth) but some features they have – one feature is their intelligence which is close to ours and even surpasses ours, in a way that we haven't found in animals yet (OK, didn't talk about cats), and a second feature is their ability to slip away – to mask themselves from our sensory network, to take advantage of our limited vision, or what חפא called "the absence of a permanent knower" in us.
Unlike these, arrival from other planets is not a necessary feature of them, and as חפא has shown there are some of them who live here even before us. The same is probably true for those whom Zvi called 'the friends in the revolving door'. Some of us have them, usually until late childhood. I have never written about them here.

It is important to note all the time that חפא did not like this word -'aliens' nor the Hebrew word for it, 'Chaizarim' ('חייזרים') which, by the way did not come into use before the 80's and even the 90's. When he spoke of those who come directly from outside the earth, he called them 'extraterrestrials', and when he spoke of the whole phenomenon known by people as 'aliens' he called it the 'neighboring intelligences' – 'A intelligence' or 'Alpha intelligence' – The intelligence of the Yahwehs dynasty and the intelligence/intelligences of the previous dynasties. All these are not intelligences of known animals (although he claims that the owners of intelligence and the animals, most of the animals we know, have common ancestors), but they are right next to us, in our world or close to it, and in these intelligences he included both outsiders who come here and lifing beings that have been here for a long time, i.e. everything that a person can experience as 'aliens'.
According to him, the stories of 'angels and demons' may certainly come from experiences of meeting a neighboring intelligence, and also the 'energetic creatures' or 'energetic predators' as mentioned by Carlos Castaneda, as far as anyone has met such ( to be clear, there are such in the universe that חפא knew).
In the matter of predators, that limitation in our vision, our inability to what חפא called 'permanent knowledge', together with the ability of the neighboring intelligences to evade from our reception network – definitely puts us in a lower place on the evolutionary scale, where we are in the position of being potential prey. 'Those I know are vegetarians' he would joke to reassure, and sometimes he said 'our flesh is not yet ripe enough for that'. And I didn't know if he meant our private flesh, or the flesh of all mankind.

Meanwhile, in the 'protected' masters' farm where we are, they leave it to other human beings, supposedly ours, to eat our living flesh.

חפא and the New World Order

Translated from

At the beginning of 1977, a mode that is part of the 'new world order' began to prevail in Israel.
According to this source of knowledge, the governmental change did not happen in May 1977 but already in January, the accident that happened to our devices on March 5th, the ones we built on חפא's orders, is an attack caused by the agents of this 'new world order', that has been in Israel fot two mounts,behind which chaos aliens are stand.
These are the aliens who are supposed to come to finish with Earth, maybe in 2037, as חפא told me and Stoli. We, because of this accident in the devices, discovered the signs of their takeover early, but we didn't know what to associate it with.

חפא didn't talk much about everything related to a 'new world order' and the fact that it exsists at all, and in fact only when I looked not many years ago at the typings I made for him of all his lectures  over the years, I noticed things he did say in some of the lectures, he usually said them as 'footnotes' (he had a way of saying things as 'important' and 'footnotes'), and there, the 'New World Order' is found.
He didn't say anything about it to the guys from the 'punch group', even though when the devices were damaged, we had suspicions that it was caused not accidently, and we were thinking about something like that that controls the world and people don't know about it. All he told us was that there are human organizations 'fighting aliens' (which as I recall, also arrested him once). Later he also told about 'Federation' elements chasing him, because of his participation in a coup attempt at the center of the Federation's government. More than that he didn't say, until the second half of the 90s.

Against this new order stood, over the years, aliens from an older order of 'string pullers' who had for years holdings on Earth, and are responsible for the relative stability that prevailed on Earth in the past. Israel was occupied by the New Order since the beginning of 1977, but incompletely. Over the years, the forces of the 'old order' remove their holdings from the earth, from the entire earth, חפא told us so both in 2007's and at the beginning of 2008. Lords of the chaotic New Order, said חפא, want to eventually destroy the Earth ("to finish it", in his words), after their agents have finished destroying everything of value on it, eating it from the insid.

The chaos aliens are not new, they are veterans, who have been striving to gain control over Earth for years. 

The MIB that exists in different countries, חפא says, does not really fight aliens and never intended to do so. He is always an agent of some order of theirs. However, part of it is financed or was financed until not long ago by the 'old world order' which prevailed until 1976 (and after) also in Israel, an order which חפא called the 'order of the federations' one of which he knew, and because there is a tension between the alien-at-their-base orders  that have the ability to finance Agents, it can be, even for Appearance, a struggle between the various agents, but not "the war of the worlds", at least in the old and innocent sense, the 'virgin' we once had (In the not too distant future according to חפא, this is exactly what is going to happen, including everything, when we are much weaker, and the technologies will not help).

The order of the last Federation era tried, according to the typed notes from חפא's lectures, to buy the holdings of the 'New Chaotic Order' on Earth and even domesticate it, and this happened when the agreements were signed in 1985 between the Federation and Earth. But as of the beginning of 2008, it seemed that the 'old-style' order was beginning, for unknown reasons, to lose interest in the Earth and is about to get out of the picture. Is it possible that this is the reason why חפא also decided to leave Earth?

Everything that happens before in Israel, חפא always told us, will happen sooner or later in the rest of the earth. "For from Zion shall come forth the Torah."

The series of the alternative history is a fictional series about a situation that might have happened on Earth if the attack of the 'world order' had not happened on our devices. Ostensibly, March 5 is not a crossroads date in 1977, unlike for example May 17 two months later, but for us personally  (Even if we didn't fully understand it in real time) it is an important date of discovery come as a result of an event that, if it had happened differently, history would have been different. Because the power that was transmitted through the devices, could defeat the fields of the new foreign order, and we would have actually become to be the rulers of the world. We would at some point paying for it, as happens later in the alternative history stories, and maybe it is better that things as they are may come late and not early (already in the 80s and 90s) as happened in the alternative history. but the failure caused by the malfunction in the devices is a sign of something ongoing, which I don't know if I can explain to someone. even now.  At least it will be recorded that I tried.

The string-pullers: external and mundane

Based on a response from 1/2/23

The strings, also behind what is happening now, are also pulled by bodies of the earth – capital, corporations, etc., as well as external ones. It is possible to differentiate between them according to the results of their operation. For example, those with mundane interests who want Netanyahu – can at a given time also want another person. They could also prefer Bennett or Lapid, but in the end they will go with the winner. And who caused Netanyahu to be the winner until now? "Da people"? No. the external ones. What is stronger is what they write and that is what will be. And the 'world order' works for them. Apparently it should be the other way around – the personal, 'small' details of the one who brings the meat are of less interest to the outsiders, who supposed to be indifferent to the first names, while the mundane, for all kinds of reasons, including emotional ones, bring the personal details. But at least as far as the 'axis of history' is concerned, it turns out that the outsiders have a word, they wrote the name Bibi from haporzim street. In other areas, the mundane factors may be given freedom, not in what is 'etched in rock' and when you check about something what it belongs to – you have to check how 'etched in rock' it is, and nothing will help – it will be, even if we less understand the reason in this, and rather, it seems sometimes that the more it is foreign to our human interests and understanding, the more likely it is 'of the outside', and therefore it is what will be.

The 'world order' is probably what is directly subordinated to outsiders, but what has been seen in recent years is that they don't want order, they want chaos and they want Netanyahu and Putin to lead it, perhaps to burn everything and then introduce a new cycle of seeds into the Earth, or, burn it before leave forever.

The MIB's entire role today and probably also in the past – is to hide the connection between outsiders and the Earth, the truth in short, and to prevent all kinds of access to all kinds of places. MIB never fights 'aliens' unless told to do so by other aliens. This may be what we know from the 70s from the well-known PLANET N. (And maybe this is what also made חפא possible – this inter-alien war). Simply, ask about anything you examine – if it is of 'adamic interests' or of the 'external'. What is more stable along the line of history – and in the last 30 years it is Netanyahu, is, by most chances, of the 'outsiders'.

And beyond that – the higher instances, they are truly indifferent and blind to 'details', and God – which is what is outside the laws of this universe. Transcendent, or Transcendent-Immanent, (the Yahwehs go from the Immanent to the Transcendent) he cares least about the details, and has no interest in Earth. There are also the zodiac signs – which are the coordinates of everything in relation to the universe, and also karma, as the 'payment at the end' for each individual at its time, does not completely affect history. Some associate her with God.

The alternative history (part I, II): Epilogue / We glided over the waves

Epilogue

  Originally written at March 5, 2006, about the alternative History line between 1992-95 

The lightning made available to us by The Blue, the leader of the galactic rebellion, was in our hands, ready to wear.
When the ceremony ends here, with the handshakes and farewell rubs with our galactic allies in The Blue forces, we will wear the lightning bolts, with which we will be fired back into the galaxy.
In a fraction of a second we will pass back through a distance that took us years (who knew how many) to make to reach this far. We will unite with the lightning. We will become lightning ourselves when we penetrate into the heart of the galaxy, as part of the final attack on the dark forces that took the galaxy from us.
חפא will stand at the end of the leading lightning structure. He will give the order, and guide us where to go.
I hold my wearable gloss, wondering if I should measure it first. Standing next to me, with their lightning bolts, are Zvi, Alva and "the stolen" Stoli. Zvi asks me if I think חפא will land us again on Earth, or somewhere else in the galaxy. I told him that to a large extent it depends on our will. חפא knows us best.
A small, green and bouncy creature approaches us. Did he lose his galaxy too? No, he's just a trickster pretending to be. There are many of them here. We ignore him.Suddenly I notice my watch. This is a watch I got for my birthday the year the alternative history started (which at this point we all know it's alternative but we don't care), and it has been stopped since the dark forces took over Earth, yet it has remained on my hand all these years. Now it is walking again. I wonder when it started walking again. The date on the watch – the !5/3 – exactly like the day it all started.
For a moment I thought if the 5/3 to which we will return, is in the continuation of the history in this story, which was caused by the malfunction that threw us into "possible time", or if, like חפא's friends before, we will go back in time to that exact day in 1977, and all the history we have lived in since then will be erased, as if wasn't there at all? Isn't that what the date on the watch says?
And maybe this means that we are about to land in another, completely new, alternative history?

We glided over the waves

  Based on posts originally written at June 14, June 21, June 28 2006, about the alternative History line between 1992-95 

Like them, we slowed down, the closer we got to the strip where the water became browner, even before the lumps of iron, concrete and muddy soil started to mix between. But we still had the energy to go on.

Only an hour ago, we were lightning, cosmic lightning that came out at a speed higher than the speed of light from the place where the jump order was given, outside the galaxy. חפא gave it, after we met again in the desert planet, after a very long journey that each member of the group made alone.

Now the group split up again. חפא once again scattered us to the parts of the world, after establishing the new world headquarters in that Greek village, Zografiai, or rather what survived from the island on which was the village where חפא spent the last year of his childhood with his family, before they went to equador, before he was kidnapped.

And again I was on my way to Israel, but not alone this time, and not weak. I had three others with me, and we were energized, equipped with everything necessary, trained in all the techniques of dealing with the galactic darkness and its servants, who still rule this region of the solar system. Not for long, we hope.

The water below us felt more and more adrift, as it became shallower. If we didn't have the galactic acceleration energy pushing us on the back, we would have undoubtedly drowned in the eddies that were there, but mostly we had to be careful not to collide with the pieces of concrete and iron. This didn't tell us anything yet.

with me, over the water, glided-ran my old friends "The stolen" Stoli and Zvi, and a new friend, Alva, Zvi's girlfriend whom he knew in Jerusalem where he arrived after the breakup of the group. After Stoli brought me in a spaceship to the meeting-planet, he returned to Earth to pick up Zvi, then picked her up as well. She was the newest member of the group, but learned things very quickly, including turning the auras off and on, which perhaps will be the most important thing here later. We splashed water on each other, happy for the feeling of the body returning to us, Stoli and I laughted on Zvi and Alva, the nice couple, and everyone again made fun of me for the fact that for so many months I didn't notice that the guys turned off the aura and I didn't know they were around me. I 'spoiled' "the stolen" Stoli's songs while changing their words and hoped they will quickly send me the telepathic guitar I left in the planet.

I debated whether to leave the lable "21" on my forehead, or find at the first opportunity a plastic surgeon to remove it.

And then when the "stolen" told me that such a surgeon might not be found so soon, I suddenly realized that there are many more things that I will not find, soon or ever.

"The stolen Stoli" said that we will save the water, because we will still enter the camp in the form of steam from the sea.
Our first objective is to team up with Ricardo and his men, who were co-leaders of the first "Labled" Rebellion, and are now imprisoned in Camp of Latrun, near where the endless mud ends and a walkable coastline begins.


	


	





	

		
The alternative history (part I) – The final cahpter
	


	
	

		
originally written at March 5, 2006, about the alternative history line between 1977-1992


Immersed in the sands, near the place where I climbed in the dark to the west bank of the crater, stood the building. A two-story stone house, in a style familiar to me, but alien to the wild landscape of the desert planet. I have always seen it on the horizon as a small dot opposite, since we arrived on foot from the Golden Gate and went down to the crater through the opposite bank.

I never paid attention to it, until a sliver of consciousness struck me, at the height of the great sunrise night celebration, when dizzy from the dancing and drunk, but fully aware and sharper than ever, I looked at the view above the cliffs opposite, and the rays of the suns shining behind me in a multitude of colors highlighted the features of the building , which is a days' walk away, but in the clean air of the star and with nothing to block it, seems close and clear.


The earth-torn school.


This is where I had to go to, from the beginning. Here will be the answer.


A short time later, the period of total darkness descended upon us, when it is impossible to see anything, and it lasted for days, maybe months. It is very difficult to measure time here. While everyone was shouting and running in panic from one direction to another and back again, I began to walk in the direction where my eyes became directed before the darkness fell, and as I walked I felt that my body knew how to walk, and I also felt that there was something inside me that was leading me, and it was strange and foreinger to me at first, and for it the darkness like It didn't exist at all. My normal eyes couldn't see anything special through the darkness that enveloped everything, but I knew where everything was. I also helped the aliens who lost their way in the dark and guided them how to get where they wanted. I also stayed with some of them, in houses similar to tabernacles, for hours, maybe days. I also slept there.

Then I got up again, and I was walking and walking, it seems to me that I walked for whole days and maybe it was only hours. Sometimes I sat down to drink from the from-air-refillable bottles that I always have with me. Sometimes I was falling asleep, and even then I didn't lose direction. That something in me that saw through the darkness and it was as if a foreign planted, something that didn't really belong to me, grew stronger, until I felt that this thing became the real me.

And so, despite the darkness, I found the place to climb from the crater, a narrow path between the rocks.

As I reached the top, the first cracks of light began to seep through the heavy curtain of darkness. I fell into a deep sleep and when I woke up everything was already flooded with the normal light of one sun, and I, at least I thought so, was again in my old and familiar self, next to the building sunk between sands and rocks.


I went up the stairs. It was very quiet. My previous concerns came back to me again. Maybe all the walking in the dark and climbing the steep path were unnecessary. חפא and the others are no longer here, and I am the only one left of all on this planet. The feeling grew when I went inside, to the empty classrooms that told stories from another days, from another planet that may no longer exist at all.

The reports from the galactic war that managed to infiltrate the planet in the days before the dark did not sound good for planets that had rebellion.

My goal was the balcony on the top floor, which I could see clearly even from a distance. I went upstairs and looked for the classroom that leads to it. From there I looked at the view. The crater spread out in front of me in all its glory. The great sun dazzled me with its infrared light, and I moved my head to the side, until I saw the "Nauamis" houses little to the south. Just like חפא always described.

I didn't go there. I flew there. Literally. I knew that's where they were.

And I haven't seen anyone yet.

Then I realized, or the new me realized in me, that I needed to change dimension, to look from the point of view of the permanent knower, from the dimension through which the one who passed through Lindigra looks. and now i can.


חפא was there. His hair and beard have turned white, but he looks healthier than ever. They all stood next to him, among the little 'Nauamis' houses, and clapped their hands when they realized I could see them, finally.

They were always by my side, from the moment I arrived on the planet. Not all of them, but at least one or two were accompanying me everywhere, from the moment I stayed at the musicians' inn, and also when I wandered across the crater with the telepathic guitar. Even when I stayed in houses, they were with me and in the last hours of darkness, when I came up from the crater, almost all of them went with me. Although I thought I was alone, I was not alone for a moment.

After all, חפא taught us in the meetings of the "purple triangle" how to turn off and turn on our auras at will, and he told them to leave the auras off, until the moment I know that I need to look from the perspective of a permanent knower, not of an ordinary person.

"Come on," said חפא, "it's time to return to the galaxy, and defeat the dark forces."

Blue lights flickered in agreement around our group.

	


	





	

		
C's science book ספר המדע של חפא
	


	
	

		

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חפא worked for years on writing a book, a "science book" he called it. His partner Anna, who was a 'scientific secretary' in Chernobyl before escaping to the West, a year before the reactor disaster, helped him. After their separation in 2004, he did not talk about the book anymore, but he hinted that the drafts remained with her (I think that she lives now in Canada). The book is designed to make the science that חפא studied at the school of galactic intelligence accessible to the language of science known on Earth.












He had a number of difficulties to write this book, first of all his 'reading dyslexia' which he got in his 'Lindigra' in space, which also made it difficult for him to write, and beyond that there were barriers of language. Not only the fact that חפא knew mostly Hebrew and a little Spanish, and Anna spoke Russian, and knew a little English, and since this included scientific English (some of the participants of the lectures thought, at least in the years of the 'glaznost', that Anna was actually a spy), most of the drafts of the book were written in this language. But these were not the only language barriers that חפא faced.The main difficulty he faced was to find a match between the concepts he acquired in the galactic intelligence higher school and the concepts of the physics of the Earthlings, and it was not easy at all. 





Because of the huge gaps in time and experience, between the physics of the galactic intelligence, which was developed over billions of years and was based on extensive cosmic knowledge accumulated over these billions of years from different worlds, and brought with it its own system of concepts, and the young physics developed at a point on Earth, a point in space that most of its inhabitants did not leave, and knew very little about the universe, at least 30-40 years ago, and had her own concepts. And of course the fact that cosmic knowledge was stored and built by beings whose systems of absorption and perception, even if they belonged to the extended 'adamic family', are different, even very different, from that of the adamics on earth.





 It was about completely two different languages.





It had to be "casting from one tool set, ancient, to a completely different set of tools", as חפא said. Therefore, he had to make clear cosmic physics concepts that were created at stages that humanity on Earth had not yet reached, but he also had to update his own concepts, from where the 'local' physics had reached. חפא was looking for the points of compatibility, the connection between the two physics, and for that he had to study the concepts of the Earthling physics, and for one who studied at the school of galactic reason, it was like returning from the position of a professor, to first grade studies. even much more than that.





But חפא made an effort. He listened to broadcast lectures of the Open University (he was unable to read books or written material at all), and Anna also helped him, and sometimes also friends who read books to him, I read him chapters from 'A Brief History of Time' and 'Until the Sun Dies'.












One point of difference between mundane science and חפא's form of study is that mundane science, like the Greek philosophy with which it grew since the time of the pre-Socratic philosophers, separates research from myth. Galactic science may also have followed this path at different stages of its history, but חפא's teachings embodied myths, which he treated as truth, almost axiomatic truth.





And the founding myth in his teaching, is undoubtedly the myth of the Tamket people who were thrown into a black hole (if indeed this is the correct translation of what חפא talked about, and I assume it is. Here I must humbly comment that I was the first to propose this concept as translation, during the first group period, from what I learned at that time in class in physics class at the teacher Yaffa) and in their exit from the black hole they laid the foundation for the first Adamic species to break out of their solar system, which was close to that black hole, and their overcoming of the crocodile lords. All the times חפא repeated the story, in the days of the first group and in the lecture groups of the following years, he was asked to explain how the ancient event of crossing the black hole by Tamket and his people could have happened.





One of חפא's explanations was, to use his own words, that in fact after the rulers threw Tamket and his people into the black hole, the black hole threw them back from it, חפא didn't know to explain why it happened, ("but it could be something in the spaceship's matter") with a power that exceeded many times the power with which they were thrown, which turned them, as he defined, into 'photons of light faster than light', that is, light that is faster than itself. That speed, prevented them from disintegrating and also prevented them from dying, although they ceased to be solid, in fact, as far as the universe was concerned, they were non-existent, "flowing zero" or "non-existent charge". "And then they were incorporeal, and then, as their speed slowed down and approached the speed of normal light, they became a charge with a density that gradually increased, until they dropped below the threshold of the speed of light, and the charge they were, returned to what it was before they were thrown. They re-embodied." On this description, by the way, I based the story of our transformation into lightning on the way back to Earth, at the end of the first part of the alternative history and our return to body form at the beginning of the second part.





This event was the basis for the ways of bypassing the speed of light in which the spaceships have moved since then – mainly the 'universe cancellation' that he himself went through in his body, and also to all the 'jumps' – the main tool by which they bypass the speed of light in the Federation, and in which חפא and "the stolen" Stoli used in the last journey. How exactly all things were based on Temakt's 'throwing' from the black hole, חפא could not find an  accessible to our language explanation.





חפא said that in his opinion, when Tamket and his people returned from the black hole, they actually 'erased the time' of the part they passed through them before being thrown into the black hole, returning to a point in their past where they could 're-edit' their lives. Just like what happened to "Ariel and Myrta", חפא's first friends who were kidnapped with him and returned to Earth before him, and חפא also believed that, just like them, Tamket's people were not really returned to the same point in space and time from which they were thrown, but to something that perhaps had characteristics of that point- period, and yet it was a new universe, and he too, so he sometimes feels, did not return to the same world from which he was abducted but to 'another world of the same kind but not exactly' world that is very similar to him but not the same. And it is very possible, חפא said, that this happens in some way to everyone, to all those who fly.





But I feel sometimes, that same things happened to me too, without even moving from my place.

	


	





	

		
The returning to the mode of the universe
	


	
	

		

When C contacted us for the first time, through Stoli's erasing-board, his question, after telling us he was born in Earth, in Haifa (although he actually was born in Jerusalem), appeared on the board, in Hebrew, "Is Ben Gurion still alive?" Ben-Gurion was the prime minister when C left the earth in 1962. We told him no, and when he asked who is the current prime minister in Israel, we answered that it's Yitzhak Rabin. The day he came back, after we met him and we started walking, he reminded us that conversation and asked if Rabin was still the prime minister. He then had in mind to go and meet the Prime Minister. We told him "no", and Zvi said "You've landed today on Begin Planet. Welcome." Stoli and I laughed at Zvi's words, including his political fervor. Over time I realized that Zvi was right, and that not only C, we also landed in a completely new world.





C's parents were patriotic-Zionist Israelis, who as archaeologists felt a special connection to the landscape of the country and its land, therefore they gave C and his sister very biblical names. They were proud to represent their country in that international archeology project as part of which they went to Ecuador, first to Greece.





It took C about a year or so, after his return here, alone, at 1977, to realize that he does not belong here to anything anymore, that he has no country, and the same feeling that accompanied him in space, is the reality on Earth as well. "I don't have a country, I don't belong to a country, I belong to the universe" he said. "When I was outside I was a space wanderer, move and wander in space, and here too I move and wander in space." He said it for the first time in the first group, the boys group forum, and he said it again in the years to come.





C was careful not to make us pessimistic, he didn't want to do that to us. He just said, "One day this may happen to you too. Try even before then, this is the advice I offer you now, to belong to the universe. If once the country or any framework , to which you are loyal and think as your prymary belonging base, falls to pieces, or throw you away, remember the universe, it is still there, and this universe, and this is the truth, is your primary belonging. That won't be changed. It can also give you a way." I think it was at the bonfire of the names burning with the group, anyway on one of those days, that he told us this. In later years, he talked about an Internet whose servers are not on Earth, and not controlled by humans from here, to which we need to connect. "And it's completely not "God", anyway not in the meaning that "his" 'ground teams' give it", he said.





For me, in those years, it was very easy to connect with this spirit of C. I also felt that I did not belong to anything, did not identify with anything, with a country or a society, even though materially I had no shortage. I, too, in some place, did not belong to this Earth. Moving and wandering in space I was, just like C. Then better years came to me, in which I did feel a sense of belonging to what was happening here and even pride, even happiness for periods. Then came years again when I had to re-remember C's words, "return and connect to the mode of the universe" as Zvi, who chose from the mid-80s to do it in another country, called it. It happens from time to time, and every time it happens again, this thing, getting back into universe mode, gets harder.